enable the present...

to think.. to know.. to realise.. that enabling the future is as pointless as trying to predict it.. 'control is an illusion, you infantile ego-maniac'*, and thus.. realise that the wheel will weave as the wheel whishes, and your task if any is to make as much of that weave as you can.. enable the present.. live now.. live fully.. suck the marrow from the very depths of your soul.. cry out and try out... carpe diem, beofre it seizes you.. also... go if u need any help watch Dead Poets Society... it will change you...

*cf: Nicloe Kidman to Tom Cruise in Driven

never ever drift...

you had not the courage to be loyal... only the convictions of your own vanity...* well is it truly pointless to try and be loyal? is it such a bore? does one really need to have courage for it? is it such a prized and scare victorian concept... well events unfolding would make me believe so... and yet.. it seems quite simple to me for some reason.. I know that I am probably burdened with archaic conceptualizations of propriety and honour.. but on the other hand the feelings they evoke... courage.. fortitude... these archaic concepts of mine.. to be aspired to I think.. not shied away from and not ever crushed under the guise of vanity.. oh what more vanity and self belief than to be courageous against the face of a barrage.. to stand straight with your held up high against the wind.. to scream to shout.. to live.. life.. in the moment and on your own terms.. to never be drifted by petty temptations.. loyalty.. to ones beliefs to ones stand...

like I admitted to shivani the other day.. "when in doubt do nothing" is probably the worst stance to take..

"sometimes you must sail, against the wind
and sometimes you must sail with it,
but the point is to always sail.. never stand still...
and never ever drift..."
-anahat

*cf: The Duke of Walsinghm to the Duke of Norfolk - Elizabeth

love me two times...

love me two times baby.. love me twice today.. love me two times girl.. one for tomorrow and one just for today* ... well now whats going on.. love me today for tomorrow? does that work? really.. can anyhting which is, still be? dont all things change, isnt transcience the true nature of existance.. and if so then why try and hold on.. why have 'sweet memories'.. pointless I say.. embrace chnage.. embrace the trepid fickleness of situations and people.. know that this is as it is now.. and tomorrow is another day. dont ask for a love for tommorrow.. you might not want it.. live the present and make the most of it cause at the end of the day like the graffitti reads.. no one gets out of life alive...

*cf: James Douglas Morrison