happy birthday to me!

hippy burrrday to meee...

true love...

it's undeniable.. it was i agree unavoidable.. its true love... and she's gorgeous.. pretty face.. nice slim body... and she keeps me up all night...

in case you're wondering... I finally bought that plasma display panel, its not the sony 3ccd, but the new samsung dnie 42" and its beautiful... im hooked booked and off the market... there is nothing like a game of tekken 5 or ff x-2 on this baby... oooh...
droool... anyway... there is a downside.. i have no money. i am broke. and then some. i cant go out till february 2008. honestly.
but its worth it... so worth it...

I have a list... 10 things to... do before I die/rules of conduct...

1. Keep it real... love with all your heart and hurt with it too...
2. Watch the sunset from the Chiliean Andes...
3. Sail the Nile...
4. Go to Istanbul and experience the Hage Sofia...
5. Bunjee Jump in New Zealand
6. Try and spend every new years eve either in the arms of love or goa.. or both
(29th Dec 2005 to 2nd Jan 2006. Goa. Booked and all of that)
7. Never lose touch with anyone youve kissed... no matter how hard it is or how much it hurts...
8. Tour at least one wine-country-side...
9. Never hesitate to compliment...
10. Buy a 7.1 HTS (Plasma TV) (Buy a Bose) (Buy an Ipod)

I still have a long way to go...

cynical idealism...

I'm a cynical idealist, as I've realised and someone just paraphrased for me... I can just see it, its going to be a rage.. and many decades down the line a plethora of neo-cynical idealists will read this and reminisce on the classical naivete of this post.

so I'm cynical.. about people.. about relationships.. about intentions.. I'm always telling people why it won't work out, and in the end it all fades and that transience is the true nature of existence, and all sorts of dim, brooding discouragements of the sort.. but I'm always hoping, someone's gonna turn around and say no!.. thats not true, look at this.. or that.. or them.. or me.. or whatever.. it's a hope against hope, but its hope, I am an idealist, may be too much of one for my own good, and my idealism is both the cause of and the hope of my current state... its a bit catch22*... if u think about it..

oh dont think about it, it'll fry your brain and you'll turn into an idealisticcynic... 'evil laugh'... you're thinking about it aren't you... hehe resistance is futile, you will be assimilated**...

*cf: Joseph Hellar
**cf: Star Trek: Generations