Thursday, October 06, 2005

cynical idealism...

I'm a cynical idealist, as I've realised and someone just paraphrased for me... I can just see it, its going to be a rage.. and many decades down the line a plethora of neo-cynical idealists will read this and reminisce on the classical naivete of this post.

so I'm cynical.. about people.. about relationships.. about intentions.. I'm always telling people why it won't work out, and in the end it all fades and that transience is the true nature of existence, and all sorts of dim, brooding discouragements of the sort.. but I'm always hoping, someone's gonna turn around and say no!.. thats not true, look at this.. or that.. or them.. or me.. or whatever.. it's a hope against hope, but its hope, I am an idealist, may be too much of one for my own good, and my idealism is both the cause of and the hope of my current state... its a bit catch22*... if u think about it..

oh dont think about it, it'll fry your brain and you'll turn into an idealisticcynic... 'evil laugh'... you're thinking about it aren't you... hehe resistance is futile, you will be assimilated**...

*cf: Joseph Hellar
**cf: Star Trek: Generations

3 comments:

Alaphia Zoyab said...

Look at me... and feel less cynical. ;-) How are you? And do elaborate on the catch-22. As always, im curious.

Anonymous said...

think you need to rethink about this confidence you have in turning everyone else around...

im waiting till we next meet...

Anahat said...

@anonymous

well we probably will meet... I just wont know it!