TAG - Grumble!

I am thinking about... why I agreed to this, okok Im at work and this is the LEAST tedious thing I have on my anvil
I said... a is a. then someone told me to behave. i havent figured it out either.
I am... bored.... now.. in life.. generally...
I want to... sit on a fucking beach and have a fucking caprioshka and not worry about deadlines.
I wish... i could sit ona fucking beach and have a fucking caprioshka and not worry about deadlines.
I love... completely.
I cry... more than I should... but rarely.. but more than I should when I do...
I hear... a fucking caprioshka saying.. come come come... no I dont. I jus didnt get this one...
I wonder... if anyone give s a shit about anything "I...."
I regret... No regrets... anahat has no regrets. Yeah right!!
I confuse... Love and Need... sometimes..
I dance... like a jackass on e.. but I love it...
I sing... terribly and all the time...
I am not always... arrogant and vain and proud and grumblle!!
I write... badly... very...
I need... a lot of help!

I Tag Nobody. I dont wanna put anyone through this. But if Maya or Aparna or Ashima volunteer. Would love to hear it.

unplugged sheeseee...

shed a tear cause i'm missing you now
im still allright to smile
girl i think about you everyday now
was a time when i wasn't sure
but you set my mind at ease
there is no doubt u'r in my heart now
said woman.. take it slow and it'll work itself out fine
all we need is just a little patience*

i have realised i love my sheeshee.... jus recently recovered from some nasty throat infection.. tonsillitis sort of a bout... and promptly to al fakheer grape... i have also realised apart from sad depressing guru datt movie songs.. i love listening to unplugged versions of songs i love listening to anyway...

so i decided to pod them all... any unplugged song i could get my hands on that i barely recognised... and i found some gems i couldn't believe... apart from something like nickelback's hero... i found a gnr version of patience which has slash playing a imagine medley in the middle..

wonderful stuff... which kinda got be thinking... whatever happened to gnr.. they made some of the most ridiculously amazing music ever... and i distinctly remember a botoxed version of axl on some award show... it was crap...

hmmm.. some of these guys just dont come again.. the Rush's the gnrs the metallicas the pearl jams... i mean sure some of them are still making great music.. but u cant do another nothing else matters now can you... you can try i suppose.. which is what these guys r up to...

hmmm its about peaking i suppose... i suppose that's why we have so many one hit wonders out there...

jus some thoughts... apparently blogging is about publishing thought...

*cf: Patience, Appetite for Destruction, Guns and Roses

home is a feeling....

yeh joh des hai tera... swades hai tera...
tuhi toh hai rah jo sujhae... tuhi to hai jo yeh batae...
chahe to jis disha pe jaye... wahi des...*

i'm going home tomorrow... true its for like four days... but it feels great to feel it.. i'm going home tomorrow... yes aman i know mumbai is closer than new york.. but home is a feeling.. its about feeling a longing and a belonging...and trust me... in that sense mumbai is just as far away from home as new york... you travel the world and see the sights... you live your lives in many places with many people and for many reasons... but home is home... and eventually we all need to go back home.. even it is jus for 4 days...

someone asked me today if i really missed home that much.. and unabashed i said... yes.. i miss mum and dad and home.. and my friends and my cuzzas... i miss khan and habitat and iic.. i miss lodi road and vasant vihar.. i miss mickeys and niruals and tgif at priya and i miss aurangzeb road... i dont miss delhi.. but i miss home.. and i miss it terribly...

usually you get so caught up in your new lives and the compulsions of your job or whatever and you cloud your mind and your heart with things to do... and places to go... and miles to go... but the heart misses the feeling of home...

when u sit alone on the beanbag and put the lights out and listen to some tunes and smoke the sheeshee thats when it hits u... thats when it overwhelms you...

will u go back to delhi? i will.. eventually i have to.. familys there.. friends will come there... its home ya...

in xanadu did kublai khan a stately pleasure dome decree...**

*cf: Yeh jo Des Hai Tera, Swades
**cf: Kublai Khan, Samuel Taylor Coleridge