now... all set...

phonecalls can be intimidating... you get them.. all the time.. the ones you dont want to take.. the ones you wish you hadn't taken.. the ones you wish you hadn't missed.. caller-id from hell... you know how you can get a phonecall and it turns your world upside down...

all these memories come tumbling out.. all the pain.. all the expectations.. all the mistakes.. all the hope.. so whaddya do.. u sit it out.. and smoke some sheesh.. have a cold glass of water.. send some sms'.. distract yourself.. and maybe if you're lucky it buries itself away until she calls again.. or maybe thats just the way its supposed to be.. you live your life from one rush of feeling to another.. pain.. pleasure.. same old same old.. and you enjoy it.. take it all in and take a deep breath.. and smile..

ohhh.. in some other news.. ive moved into my new apartment in delhi.. its in nizz east and it a whole lot of life coming full circle.. kit kat's chicken burgers.. om's butter chicken.. aap ki khaatir's kaakori.. familiar roads.. familiar turns.. sights and sounds.. so its a cozy little place.. the pdp is wall mounted.. the dish works.. and i have broadband again.. all set.. oh and thanks to prince paan i have a new sheesh.. now.. all set..

so phonecalls and coming home and new apartments in familiar settings and losing bombay and coming back to friends who seem so real but you cant tell cause you havent been around to new friends who dont know how messed up you are in the head and havent adjusted to dealing with you all over again.. moving towns can be trying...