and being ready...

Many's the time I've been mistaken
And many times confused
Yes, and I've often felt forsaken
And certainly misused
Oh, but I'm alright, I'm alright
I'm just weary to my bones
Still, you don't expect to be
Bright and bon vivant
So far a-way from home, so far away from home*

This post isn't about being far away from home... this post is about confusions and expectations.. this is a post about being alright... about being forsaken.. and still being alright... this is a post about hope and drudgery... bachavellian drudgery... and being upto it... this is a post about life and its turns.. about mornings and being missed when it rains.. its about fleeting glimpses while driving past and beautiful women in red.. its about concerts and concertos... its about being a bridge over troubled waters.. and about swimming against the wind... its about deep breaths and heavy sighs.. this is a post about crowds and mall fright.. its about pretences and egos.. its about phone calls in the middle of the night and good morning sms's... its about waking up in the morning and raising your weary head.. its about... feeling small... sitting wasted and wounded... this is a post about emotional insecurities.. and being ready... this is a post about the human need to be needed... its about enlightenment and lighting joints... this is a post about leading her down... this is about raising her up... this is a post about Wednesday nights and Sunday afternoons... this is a post about the smell of freshly baked bread and of pine early in the morning after the rains.. this is a post about lindt dark chocolate thins and about Aladdin... its about holidays and vacations and exhalations... its about road rage and podding.. this is a post about realisations... that love isn't just about waking up next to her and knowing that you're completely vulnerable.. but also about accepting and letting go... this is a post about all the little things.. and all the big ones as well.. this is a post about... the life I'm living...

*cf: American Tune, Simon and Garfunkel